Longing

When unraveled,
these threads tie nothing down.

Each actor perceives,
attaches meaning,
and thus is born feeling.

Yet if we perceive
subjectivity,
and do not trust?

All feeling is strewn
like volumes unbound,
pages and pages
caught only by air.

Who are You?

I'm not perfect,
I'm not hot.
I'm not happy,
I'm just not.
I cry when you're not looking,
I'm not ok, just a bit unsure of what to feel,
I dont care what you say,
I just want to be me.
I'm not a follower and I won't follow you!
I wont let you run my life,
I wont let you lead me away.
I refuse to partake in your bullshit lies.
I'm loud, but I don't care!
Thats just me I'm insecure,
lost and a lil sad, but you dont care.
I'm not here for your entertainment, I'm not a game!
I like a little pain.
I'm addicted to dark things,
though it breaks me, I just cant get enough.
I love the thrill,
I'm not afraid of things that may harm me,
That's just me.
You may think you love me,
but I'm on a one-way road to death,
I'm just going my own way.
I don't care if I fall,
I don't care if I cry,
I don't care if I bleed to death,
I don't care what you do to me.
I won't care, but again,
That's just me!

Just To Tell You

Hello my dear,
Pull up a chair and sit right down.
Have you ever had a woman.
Speak to you words of love?
Whispers of desires, lustful passions
With fantasies thought out?
Before we will pursue,
We will take a break.
Have a cup of coffee or a tea.
Have a glass of beer or sweet wine.
Have a slice of strawberry pie,
With a dollop of whipped cream.
Take a taste,
If you want raspberries,
Without a thought
I will give you all.
I press raspberries into your right hand,
And blueberries into your left.
Curling your fingers,
Squeezing until the juice runs down your wrists,
I'll slide my tongue along your palms.
Do you like the taste?
Do you want more?
Don't shake your head!
Now we will go further.
Have you ever had a woman
Make passionate love totally to you?
To awaken your desires,
As she makes all your fantasies come true?
To map your soft body,
To massage your chest and your back,
With her hands and her tongue.
A kiss so soft but passionate,
And If that's not enough,
She kneels down.
Give her a song to sing.
It sweeps you off your feet.
Spending many hours,
Inspiring and sedating your lust.
Creating deep in your heart with love and trust,
To show that you'll never,
For a moment have to doubt,
Of devoted fidelity or what true hope is all about.
To be your best friend and more,
To be the architect of your smiles.
Is just one of her many roles,
Or helping you to reach for the stars.
And attaining all your goals.
Whatever you ask for,
Will be sealed with a kiss.
If you ever choose to risk trying,
A simple woman like me.
This is me, all I am,
All my heart will ever desire to pursue.
I can find in simply trusting you,
What else do I need to do?
To have you notice me?
So my dearest one, to you I write,
This poem to tell you.
The promise I have for you,
Ten thousand kisses I promise you,
With all of my hope multiplied by two.
Have I awoken your wonder?
Now it's all up to you,
The choice is yours...